ok ok... todays WEdnesday 29th April 2009, finished ma exam d...:) , had lots of fun lately, get to go out wif new frends.
today went out wif d 'management flower' ...hahaha , i cant belif it tat Zenita wud go out wif me and hansen, shes normally so lan si, mana tau wanna go out for movie wif us....
we went to Gurney to watch X Men .... haha, nice movie, but she and rachel complained tat its violent a bit....
hmm... i m so blur la, i miss Xiao Tong so much, everyday i m tinking and hoping tat she will b available. i sure hope tat she will consider me some day. :D
Wednesday, April 29, 2009
Wednesday, April 22, 2009
23rd April Thursday
lost my bet on chelsea, there goes my RM15 .... and RM 10 to liverpool...
anyway, i have some good news for ma self , I GOT HOSTEL nex semester!!!! woohoooo~~~
haha, nowadays in hostel i got friend le, so song man! can go visit my frenz le this time.haha!!!
erm... now im waiting for my last subject nia, FINANCE examination. after tat im going to party the hol night alrdy . :) hmm.. now tat i got my aman damai, im tinking of going to LEFT4DEAD ,haha, yesterday played till 4am, then 1pm now baru wake up, going to luch soon.
ok ok, really bo mood study, facebook also bo mood check. i wonder wats going at home now....
****************************happy tat i got hostel, sad tat i lost money********************
anyway, i have some good news for ma self , I GOT HOSTEL nex semester!!!! woohoooo~~~
haha, nowadays in hostel i got friend le, so song man! can go visit my frenz le this time.haha!!!
erm... now im waiting for my last subject nia, FINANCE examination. after tat im going to party the hol night alrdy . :) hmm.. now tat i got my aman damai, im tinking of going to LEFT4DEAD ,haha, yesterday played till 4am, then 1pm now baru wake up, going to luch soon.
ok ok, really bo mood study, facebook also bo mood check. i wonder wats going at home now....
****************************happy tat i got hostel, sad tat i lost money********************
Saturday, April 18, 2009
done wif this shittty ppl
...... im kinda pissed off alrdy, always crapping beside me and nag nag nag, i felt damn pissed wif them alrdy!!!! asking for RM10 for basic meals is like asking for their lives, wat a immature tinking of them. they always tink tat my PTPTN loan cant b used finish....wat a joke, ask any of my frends here and they can tell u tat they get to eat 3 meals a day... me? i have to beg for it...yup, beg for the bloody money to jus have a meal on sunday!!!
this is bullshit! i really felt helpless and totally no freedom at all ... this so called fucking home of mine really makes me felt like a prisoner. earn so much a month, and all i ask as A SON!!! is for a meal , now u tell me drive home to eat, and when i explained and appeal tat my car petrol is insufficient to get me here and there as i like ma, then u dont bother and said tat its my business ... i wanna break up from this shit family ties... when i grow up and work in few years time, i will not step into this 'house' of mine. i hate it... i really hate this place
**********theres no place like HOME*************** im dissapointed at u both of handling me!
this is bullshit! i really felt helpless and totally no freedom at all ... this so called fucking home of mine really makes me felt like a prisoner. earn so much a month, and all i ask as A SON!!! is for a meal , now u tell me drive home to eat, and when i explained and appeal tat my car petrol is insufficient to get me here and there as i like ma, then u dont bother and said tat its my business ... i wanna break up from this shit family ties... when i grow up and work in few years time, i will not step into this 'house' of mine. i hate it... i really hate this place
**********theres no place like HOME*************** im dissapointed at u both of handling me!
Thursday, April 16, 2009
17th April in da Midst of test
exams all around me.... yup, tats wat i've been going through, final exam, my heart jus cant wait for the finals to b over. lately liverpool get kicked out of da champion league, sad to say...
in hostel, life going pretty well as i hav finally found a bunch of guy frenz to mix wif, 1)Bro Hansen, 2)Bro cris(but curently he got his gf to attend to everyday) 3)ci sheng my buddy , 4) Ong the joker, 5) Siang my 'sun you' ... aaa(pleasant smile*) , now , i feel happy to go to school, but still i HATE exam la.
anyway, in school , i hav move on alrdy, however there is somethings tat i felt very confused about, my emotional feelings toward ppl has changed. right now, im not even sure whether i like or dislike some1 , my feelings toward 'them' is in the range of 'i dunno' . hmm...miss ooi ask me about my feelings towards her , and i was speechless , i wasnt confident to start another relationship , i was hoping tat i shudnt b using ppl to replace my ex, no, not with my curent sitution. i had to make sure tat i can forget about her ma.
question is....have i? well...i have been able to relax and b natural again, i seldom tink of her during the day nor night. i personally tink i have move on, but now its jus my emo feelings tats i hav to adjust. i dunno who i liked, who i really love and whom i had a crush on also.zzz... in school, im talking freely to EVERYBODY. tat doesnt mean im a playboyla...
well..later im having da exam again...BM, 2pm. oh well....i wont be studying anything crappy about it d.wish me luck.haha, veenn , hope u come penang asap!!!
in hostel, life going pretty well as i hav finally found a bunch of guy frenz to mix wif, 1)Bro Hansen, 2)Bro cris(but curently he got his gf to attend to everyday) 3)ci sheng my buddy , 4) Ong the joker, 5) Siang my 'sun you' ... aaa(pleasant smile*) , now , i feel happy to go to school, but still i HATE exam la.
anyway, in school , i hav move on alrdy, however there is somethings tat i felt very confused about, my emotional feelings toward ppl has changed. right now, im not even sure whether i like or dislike some1 , my feelings toward 'them' is in the range of 'i dunno' . hmm...miss ooi ask me about my feelings towards her , and i was speechless , i wasnt confident to start another relationship , i was hoping tat i shudnt b using ppl to replace my ex, no, not with my curent sitution. i had to make sure tat i can forget about her ma.
question is....have i? well...i have been able to relax and b natural again, i seldom tink of her during the day nor night. i personally tink i have move on, but now its jus my emo feelings tats i hav to adjust. i dunno who i liked, who i really love and whom i had a crush on also.zzz... in school, im talking freely to EVERYBODY. tat doesnt mean im a playboyla...
well..later im having da exam again...BM, 2pm. oh well....i wont be studying anything crappy about it d.wish me luck.haha, veenn , hope u come penang asap!!!
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Saturday, April 4, 2009
5th April 'I cant move on ...'
entering the fourth month alrdy, another five days it would be our 12th month(if it includes us still) . i am still wondering, how are u ? long time we've not seen each other.
we both have grown up, u have grown slim and beautiful in the LORD, i can see ur fervency for God, the way u behave and the way u talked. U've come out stronger ever since this relationship.Me on the other hand, still struggling to move on like u ordered me to. everyday i struggled in putting on smiling faces in church whenever ppl ask me bout u, even 'nurse' ask me about u was alrdy enough to make me in tears.
i wonder and live with hope each day, whether or not u'll accept me if i ask u to again. i know i failed once b4 when i realized u were still holding so much grudges against me , but i din know tat ever since tat day, ur love have faded and changed into so much difrent. frenz?or foe? i dunno.... the way u treated me tat day when i met u in DIGI center for the cancellation of ur line, there u were, acting so cold .....
u treat me as if nothing has happened, it was as if tat u barely know me. deep inside, i was hurt deeply, how cud u move on so quickly ...
many frenz has pressured me to move on by looking for another girl, but no 1 can replace u at all. i cant find another 'u' in those ppl. the way we used to laugh, giggled, and share our happiness , past experience/lives and teary moments together.
this coming week is study week...im still trying to adjust myself to hostel life which i opted to avoid further damages to my relationship wif my parents, i m not doing well now. In life, its just hard ... easy said than done.
haiz...i know i blogged this story many times, but as i write this to express my feelings, i just wanna let u know tat in my heart, u r still there, i dunno when it will fade off depending on how long we dont communicate. i am still trying hard to do wat u tink its best for us--MOVE ON, i know u wanna study and concentrate on ur career. i will try. bye for now Chin Ling.
i mi$$ u a lot still. everyday i still tink of u, tink of the times we used to fellowship together and spend time getting to know one another. i miss those times, i miss the times where u help me pick myself up when im having trouble at home. i miss u. :(
we both have grown up, u have grown slim and beautiful in the LORD, i can see ur fervency for God, the way u behave and the way u talked. U've come out stronger ever since this relationship.Me on the other hand, still struggling to move on like u ordered me to. everyday i struggled in putting on smiling faces in church whenever ppl ask me bout u, even 'nurse' ask me about u was alrdy enough to make me in tears.
i wonder and live with hope each day, whether or not u'll accept me if i ask u to again. i know i failed once b4 when i realized u were still holding so much grudges against me , but i din know tat ever since tat day, ur love have faded and changed into so much difrent. frenz?or foe? i dunno.... the way u treated me tat day when i met u in DIGI center for the cancellation of ur line, there u were, acting so cold .....
u treat me as if nothing has happened, it was as if tat u barely know me. deep inside, i was hurt deeply, how cud u move on so quickly ...
many frenz has pressured me to move on by looking for another girl, but no 1 can replace u at all. i cant find another 'u' in those ppl. the way we used to laugh, giggled, and share our happiness , past experience/lives and teary moments together.
this coming week is study week...im still trying to adjust myself to hostel life which i opted to avoid further damages to my relationship wif my parents, i m not doing well now. In life, its just hard ... easy said than done.
haiz...i know i blogged this story many times, but as i write this to express my feelings, i just wanna let u know tat in my heart, u r still there, i dunno when it will fade off depending on how long we dont communicate. i am still trying hard to do wat u tink its best for us--MOVE ON, i know u wanna study and concentrate on ur career. i will try. bye for now Chin Ling.
i mi$$ u a lot still. everyday i still tink of u, tink of the times we used to fellowship together and spend time getting to know one another. i miss those times, i miss the times where u help me pick myself up when im having trouble at home. i miss u. :(
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